Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Professional Egoist

An acquaintance once told me that is an alternative expansion of the acronym PE that normally stands for Professional Engineer. 

I though to myself “Ha, ha”.

I will admit I have seen some of the PEs I know treat “non-technical” people in a manner that I think is condescending, but I never seen them do it to other “technical” people.

Until I got my PE.

Apparently they saved their bad behavior until I was a member of the club.  In the last few months I’ve actually heard things like:

“Don’t talk with her, work with her boss.  He’s an engineer.”

And;

“No I don’t want to give that work to her, she’s not a PE”.

Really?

I know engineers don’t have the best reputations as people persons, but,

Really?

If I ever say anything like that I sure hope someone calls me on it…

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Endings

So last summer I attended my 20 year high school reunion.  High school was a good time for me.  I enjoyed it immensely at the time, and in retrospect feel truly lucky.

I talked with people I hadn’t during high school and found out that we had much in common.  I talked with people I disliked in high school and found that I still didn’t care for them.  I saw people I kept in touch with, and some I hadn’t.

There was one person there that I hadn’t kept in touch with, but wish I had.  It was so good to see her.  I only got to talk with her for a few minutes, but I was hopeful that we would be able to stay in touch going forward.

A couple of months later I found out she had committed suicide.

What?

I have to admit that it still distresses me if I dwell on it.

I mentioned to a co-worker whose opinion I value later that week.  I said that I wish I knew why.  I was told that “Even if you knew you couldn’t have done anything about it.” 

My first reaction was to deny that I would have tried to “talk her out of it”, but to be honest with myself, had I known she was thinking that way, I’m sure I would have tried to help.

I’ve been told that sometimes suicide isn’t always about things bad, but that sometimes a person looks around and thinks “This is it?  There’s nothing more?”

A few years ago I went for breakfast at IHOP with my grandfather.  At the time my mom was sick, and I was going to drive him out to see her.  Grandpa was a bout 90 at the time, and Grandma had been gone for a few years already.  Over breakfast we had a real conversation about, life, in general.  He commented that he hadn’t thought he would outlive any of his children, and that he had days when he felt like Methuselah. 

Just a couple of months later the got pneumonia and was gone three days later.

He certainly didn’t commit suicide, but I think he looked around and thought; “This is it?  There’s nothing more?”, and sort of gave up.

There are times when I miss him, miss both of them, but instead of remembering the end I think I’ll choose to remember the other times, and be happy for them in that they got to go on their own terms.

Monday, October 17, 2011

#12

Family Outdoor Adventure

One of these days I’ll get to do something on the weekend for myself but until then; more scouts.  This time it was Bear Cub requirement number 12, Family Outdoor Adventure. 
We went to Powder Valley Nature Center


And hiked.


We let Jacob plan the day – specifically by picking the picnic lunch menu.

Dill Pickles, Strawberries, and PB&J sandwiches.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Cowhand




So, the last time I was on a horse was when I was five.  Why so long you ask?  Getting thrown would have been one thing.  Getting your foot caught in the stirrup and dangling upside down while your horse runs in circles is another thing all together.  “Thankfully” I was too short to drag on the ground.  Had we shown up, gotten on the horse and gone for a trail ride I would have been fine, but that’s not the way it happened.  We got there, and they assigned us horses, we had is brush them, get their saddles on (the professionals did the bits), and get helmets.  I was ready to crap my pants by the time we actually got on them, but I digress.  This is really about camping with boy scouts!

So we pulled into our camp sit at dusk on Friday, and we didn’t get our Quesadilla dinner until after dark.  No big deal, the moon was spectacularly bright.


We couldn’t really have had better weather; lows in the mid 50s, and highs in the low 80s.  The only thing missing was my jacket.  The following morning started at sunup (630am) because the boys wanted Bacon, Eggs, and Pancakes for breakfast.  We had to be at the stable at 9am for horseback riding.  We were only five minutes late. 


As an aside; I hate it when the boys want pancakes.  They are nothing but slow, messy carbohydrates.

The trail ride was as expected.


I think my horse, Cowhand, was pissed off about having to carry the fat guy.  Repeatedly I got rubbed against trees, and taken through the tall grass.  I love Chiggers, really; especially when they’re all over my legs.  The ride lasted a little over and hour and everyone survived.

Lunch was sandwiches, and we set up dinner to cook in the sun.



We had two solar cookers.  The professionally built one got up to 350 degrees and had three pounds of ground beef, diced onions, and chili seasoning in it.  The other one was made by the scouts at a previous troop meeting out of cardboard, duct tape, and tinfoil.  I don’t know how hot it got, but it did do an adequate job of warming up the beans.  We heated the beans up in a black tin that came with another solar cooker the Scoutmaster didn’t bring along on this trip, but he did tell me that the manufacturer claimed that; “Food cooked with photons tastes better!”

While dinner was cooking we took a hike down the creek and let the boys, be boys.


All told we spent until dinner, about 4 hours, playing in the creek.  The total walk was between two and three miles. 

SNAKE!


I asked the boys what kind it was.  They didn’t know, but wanted to pick it up anyway.  So after I said no, several times, we talked about the fact the baby poisonous snakes can be more dangerous than the adults because they don’t withhold any venom.  I have no idea if its true, but I didn’t want them to pick it up, and one lie was as good as another at that point.

Dinner was quick and easy.  Chili and the leftover cheese from the quesadillas; since we used the solar cookers there was no cooking fire to deal with.  Dinner took about 30 minutes from start to finish.  Breakfast must have taken 2 full hours.  Yeah for solar cookers!

So at seven o’clock I was ready to pass out.  I actually went into my tent and laid down for 15-20 minutes before the bonfire.

That night based on the Scoutmaster’s suggestion the bonfire was lit at the top, instead of the bottom.  What I fabulous idea!  I do that all the time when I use my smoker at home, why it never crossed my mind to do for a bonfire escapes me.  Anyway our bonfire lasted a good hour and a half.  It wasn’t as big as a typical bonfire, but it gave us a steadier amount of heat and light.  It also burned virtually smoke free.  I assume because the wood got dried out properly as the fire burned its way down.

So at nine that night a strange thing happened.  Two of the boys got up, and decided that it was time to go to bed.  They were so tired they were falling asleep sitting up watching the bonfire.  30 minutes later we put the remains of the bonfire out, and all went to bed. 

The boys all slept until 730 on Sunday morning.

Monday, October 3, 2011

Fat Raccoons

Last weekend I got to go camping with the cub scouts!  I once called camping with the boy scouts total chaos.  If that’s true then camping with the cub scouts is ultimate chaos.  The amount of uncontrolled energy is staggering. 

I honestly don’t know how the cub scout den leaders do it.  I really don’t.  Just one night with a large group of sugar fueled, up past bedtime, out in the woods kids make me want to run away to some quiet place and practice Buddhist meditation. 

I let Jacob run while I set up the tent.  He got to play, I got to work.  Part of me wants to make it hard for him so he doesn’t want to go on to boy scouts, but I’m not that selfish.  Yet.  Dinner was hot dogs that were amazingly un-burnt. Chips, chips, cookies, and watermelon.

I’ve always had a hard time keeping track of Jacob after it gets dark.  I know I should trust him more, but it’s hard sometimes.  In any case I got him glow sticks, and that made it easy to keep tabs on him, so that is going to get added to the list standard equipment when I’m camping with him.  He finally ran out of energy at 1030. 

Did I mention that it was cold?  I checked the weather on my cell phone, at bedtime it was 39 degrees.  Once I got him into his sleeping bag and he warmed up he was out like a light.  I woke up a couple of times in the middle of the night, with Jacob partially laying on me.  Ugh.

The morning plan was to get up pack and leave.  Breakfast was on your own.  The Raccoons that visit cub world in the night at Beaumont must be the best fed animals in the world.  Cub scouts seem to drop as much food as they eat.  In the morning I checked out the picnic table we had used for dinner the night before, and there was food still just sitting out.  None of it appeared to have been disturbed; so either it was too cold to the raccoons to come out, or they were so full that they just weren’t hungry.

In either case us people were hungry, so we stopped at IHOP on the way home…